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Quick update & the calling behind writing

Hey folks!

It’s been a hot minute. I’ve been in hibernation mode, but really. A mega hermit phase if you will. In reality the past month and a half has been all about deeply connecting to my being as I move forward into the next chapter of life.


What’s going on?

That’s a loaded question… the quick life update includes: I’m done school as of mid-February (yippee) and will receive my diploma in May as universities don’t like to hand them out early, I’ve been selling lots of my belongings and will be moving this summer (I don’t know where… childhood home where I’m living currently is selling!), I have a few projects up my sleeve, I’m navigating some women’s health medical stuff, and my work situation is babysitting two awesome kiddos (or as I call them nuggets, goobers, rugrats) and personal training/instructing group fitness at a local studio.

It’s a giant shift, finishing school. A shift that for a period of time felt like it would never come. Another big shift is going from almost checking working as a personal trainer off my “potential job list”, but real talk I’m all about it. And moving/selling childhood home… well I’m sure I’ll be a hot mess when it actually sells but for now all is good.

Honestly, since wrapping up classes in February I just haven’t felt that compelled to write. Insert hermit phase. I found myself wanting to write but that feeling ended up leaving as quickly as it came. My brain has needed solid space to process the numerous changes and I’m happy to report my internal base feels ready to take on whatever the world decides to hand over.

With the calling to write on the blog again, a thought popped into my noggin the other day: why do I write? I figured this would be as good of a time as any to delve this topic.

I could give a handful of answers such as it helps me to process, I love writing, creating posts is an enjoyable pastime, I dig the blog community. These are all true, but they totally aren’t the core. Rather they are like the outer layers of an onion. They totally make writing even better, but they aren’t the magic.

Writing, for me, is a calling like no other. It’s creating. It’s expressing. It’s raw, vulnerable, transparent.

I CANNOT not write. Attempting to stop the internal pull I feel to write would be like trying to stop a freight train. It’s not happening.


Sometimes the need to write comes out of nowhere. I find myself out on a walk or a bike and I have to stop and send myself a text or note because whatever is on my mind NEEDS to make it onto the blog. Sometimes I choose to write instead of sleep because I’m so deeply compelled to get this stuff into the world. Sometimes when writing I find myself smiling or laughing because it’s such an integral part of my life, other-times I’m crying because the release is so intense – physical, mental, emotional, spiritual.

The realer the content, the faster it flows out of me. The deep posts, I usually find my fingers can type fast enough. It’s like an explosion of thoughts and I have no option other than to talk about it. Like the world is literally yelling at me to get it out because if I feel so strongly then sure as heck someone needs to hear it.

I’ve found that my darkest, most vulnerable posts not only leave me feeling like I am being my truest self and honoring where I’m at but also the feedback I get (even if it’s one person) just shows me time and time again that this calling has such an important purpose outside of myself.

In reality I’m sharing my experience. I’m telling my story via the online writing platform.

It’s that simple.

But it’s so much more than that. It always has been, and it always will be ♥

“If you are working on self love without healing the unconscious (shadow, inner child) you aren’t working on self love. You’re working on spiritually bypassing. Self love is about integration, embodiment, wholeness, and authenticity.” – Maryam Hasnaa


These are a few of my favorite things

Hey folks!

It’s been a while since I’ve shared my “recent faves” or things I’ve been uber digging lately. Today is the magical day where I spill the beans. Also, to be real, I wanted to share a more lighthearted post between you save yourself part 1 and part 2 (up later this week/weekend).

For the most part, everything in this post is new to me within the past six or so months. I’m excited to share with y’all the random things I’ve been loving as of late. Let’s get going.

Acupressure mat

My friend Lindsey “lawn” suggested this when I was dealing with a major hip flare up about two months ago. She allowed me to borrow hers for a couple days and I fell in love enough to purchase my own. Acupressure mats have a bunch of small circular dots with spikes on them. They provide nervous system stimulation without any skin perforation. I’ve been laying on this a few nights a week for 20-30 minutes whilst listening to music or podcasts.


Roll on essential oil

From Etsy. This one: “liquid xanax”, while definitely not Xanax, it has a mellow scent/helps me to relax.


Unicorn notebook

I needed a notebook for making notes and jotting down each golden nugget my brain has related to some upcoming new adventures. It surely doesn’t hurt that it’s my dang spirit animal. For the record, unicorns were my spirit animal before they were cool. Also, I prefer the term “mountain unicorn”, because, well, I climb mountains on the reg.



Previously I’ve underestimated the power of going for a walk. Walking is simple, easily accessible where I’m living, and provides outdoor experience and fresh air. I prefer trail over road walking but have recently been partaking in both. Below is a picture I took on a recent trail walk of a (mostly) frozen pond.


Essential oils via diffuser

Health shield = wonderful scent. It’s a mix of cassia, clove, eucalyptus, lemon, and rosemary. Creative juice is another fun one I like to diffuse in the morning. Lavender is my go-to when my brain needs a chill pill and I’ll often have this going when laying on the acupressure mat.


CBD (aka cannabidiol)

Another round of before it was cool… similar to the unicorns. I began testing out CBD a few years ago, both topically and orally and have found it beneficial for my own body. Recently I came across Pure Kana and dig the flavors as my taste-buds and olfactory receptors don’t prefer the more earthy taste/smell. I also dig that the company uses CO2 extraction and is 3rd party tested/they are transparent with test results (KEY for supplements).


Hiking/outdoor-related books

Now that I’m done school with the exception of my current six week course, I’ve been enjoying more “for fun” reading.


“I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow; but through it all I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing.” ― Agatha Christie



December intentions

Hey buttercups!

I hope you’re all having a stellar week! To my fellow college students in the midst or heading into finals – BREATHE… it’ll be ok, the world won’t end.

Mellow morning writing

Recently I jotted down a set of December intentions for myself, and today I’m choosing to share them with the blog world in hopes of inspiring others to set intentions for their life.

1. Take up space

I’ve linked a post for this intention which I think sums it up nicely.

2. Broaden my outdoor activity repertoire

I’d like to try XC skiing, snowshoe running, and downhill skiing (as a snowboarder this should be rather interesting!).

3. Write more simple posts

Posts like “take up space“. Just my thoughts. Flowing words. Not paragraphs per say. Just me writing.

4. Create mental space daily

Setting aside a few minutes each day to just sit and breathe and see where my mind wants to wander. Other tools for creating more mental space could be yoga, meditation apps, going for a walk in the woods near my house.

5. Practice enthusiasm

I feel much better when I’m enthusiastic in general about most everything that comprises my daily existence. I lose this a little bit in the winter months because it’s cold and dark, but now is when I need it most. So, I’m putting the intention out there into space to focus my energy on being enthusiastic throughout my days.

“Just simple days. Simple days of laughing lots and breathing deep and loving with my whole heart and feeling that love back. That’s all I’m really looking for now.” – S.C. Lourie