The chaos:
It feels as if my brain and body could explode.
As if everything could and will combust.
The chaos is an internal cue that there is something out of alignment.
Either I’m living out of alignment, I’m acting out of alignment, or I’m engaging in things that are out of alignment.
Regardless, it’s an internal cue that something is off.
Sometimes the chaos is nonexistent and sometimes it is felt within every nook and cranny of my being.
While in reality, I recognize that it is here to teach me something or to help guide me.
In the moment it feels like my worlds are colliding and that I am drowning.
The truth is, I will drown if I give it power beyond what is there to teach.
The chaos is a double edged sword. It’s main purpose is to teach but if that isn’t accepted and taken inward then it will slowly pick and pick away.
The chaos has become one of my biggest friends because I know that it means something significant.
My safety net if you will.
When I feel chaos I now know that something needs to change because otherwise I go backwards.
Backwards isn’t something that I welcome with open arms, backwards means a dark place.
Rather than going backwards I am continuously trying to find ways to level up and keep aiming the arrow forward.
Chaos = learning = potential = growth.
That’s the mindset.
Keep the arrow pointing forward.
